This is really hard to write but I know some nurses in Ohio look at this blog and I just want them to know what has happened. Our beautiful little boy Ethan passed away January 22, 2011. He was doing really well and had had a great life considering all his health problems and physical handicaps. He started having some airway issues and lots of seizures in December. He passed away in the middle of the night from most likely seizures at home, unexpectedly. We are devastated and trying to piece our lives back together, although it will never be the same without our little red head. Kaden talks about Ethan everyday and misses him so much. Lizzy uses Ethan's sign that he used when his feelings were hurt. We never taught it to her, so its so sweet she picked it up from him. Ethan was doing so great before December, he was walking in a walker, signing and talking so much more than he ever had. He was in preschool had friends there that treated him like a little boy. We just bought a house that was one level and put wood floors in for him so he could wheel around the house and he used his walker all the time in it. He had amazing therapists, he was in horse therapy which he loved and helped him, and we had just got this cool computer that he was using to say more words for him then he could say. We miss him so much. Thank you to the nurses that helped get Ethan to the point where he was at because he really enjoyed life in his last couple of years- swimming, biking, playing soccer in his walker, and just having him be able to do things that were as close to being a normal kid as possible. This video of Ethan was of his last week with us and this is the first time he walked in his walker without anyone pushing him from behind, my mom always said he would walk and i guess in a way he did.

My Boys turned FIVE this week and I am so happy for them they had a great birthday! Kaden got his dreams fulfilled...friends, bakugon toys, a pillow pet, guns, and a pinata party! Ethan was a little scared of the pinata..note to self don't do pinatas for Ethan.. but he loved the hotwheels car ramp, ball, radio, and friends got him a super sweet machine gun that he sleeps with and wakes up with. I feel like its been 20 years since I had the boys but it has only been 5, crazy. Anyway I am a little sick with a cold, the house is a mess and I have to stop being so lazy and get back to work, I will start tomorrow as Mondays tend to push you into doing things you really don't feel like doing. I will post some pics of the birthday when I get another second.

Lizzy's photo shoot (a.k.a. our fun after church taking pictures of lizzy)
The butterfly pavilion- first trip to somewhere fun with all three by myself-- went pretty well
The right is Ethan's new kid walk to the left Kaden's favorite thing--playing in ET's wheelchair
Lizzy is 4 months old and she is getting big so fast, she is darling and if it weren't for her little blow-outs three times a day I would say she is the perfect baby :) Kaden is enjoying the lovely denver weather by going to the park with his little buddies. Classic phrase this week would be when he told Justin and I to choose the right when we were bickering... love it! Ethan got a walker and loves it. He is able to stand up at the kitchen table and walk when pushed from behind, he is saying "out" and "more" and lots of other words, kind of hard to understand but heck he is trying. Justin is working hard, but kind of a chill month this month he will be done with residency July 1st. He got a job in Wheat Ridge as a hospitalist (adult medicine-- only works in the hospital, no clinics and they do shifts about 12 hour days, 15 days a month) I am busy cleaning up blow outs and feeding children, besides that I get to go to an occasional girls night make a fool of myself and call it a night. I am also reading Alice in Wonderland recommended to me by a great friend and I have to say it is just as crazy as can be.. I am enjoying it. An old friend moved back in the neighborhood and it has been so nice having her and her family back. Blessed to have my family and the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. We are taking Ethan to see an orthopedic specialist at Shriners about a hip surgery that we were told Ethan needs but we wanted a second opinion. So if Ethan needs this its going to be miserable for all parties involved... so we shall see. That sums up the blah blah blog of the tanner family for the last couple months. Have a great week and hopefully it will warm up and be nice wherever you are!

So let's see more details... Had a VBAC loved it, much better than the c-section, but I did have a fabulous epidural that lasted the whole 13 hours of labor.  She weighed 8 1bs 13 oz, I would have posted her cute nude picture on the the scale, but I read an Ensign article from church about being careful what you post on the internet because it will be on FOR-EV-ER and your kids might be extremely embarrassed later of the pics you posted of them.    Anyway we stayed a couple nights in the hospital, we have great supportive friends that watched the boys.  Of course the night before we were coming home Ethan had to go to the ER for a quick visit for his breathing... scaring my friend and just added to the fun and chaos.  He is fine, just needed some medication.  Anyway my parents came for a week and they are always so helpful and wonderful, I definitely feel the after affects of the baby were more painful then the delivery (with the epidural).   Anyway nursing is soooo much better then pumping.  Also, bringing Lizzy home from the hospital I felt like I was stealing her because of all the time the boys stayed in the hospital it just didn't feel right, but of course it was and has been so fun being a regular mom and baby combo.  Thanks for all the congrats we feel so blessed, and the boys do love her, Kaden calls her a cutie and Ethan watches very closely as to what I am doing with her.  Have a Happy Thanksgiving!

She's Arrived!

Elizabeth Anne Tanner arrived November 1st, we just love her and are having a blast with her.  

We're 4 and we're loving every minute of it!

    Pumpkin patch at Chatfield botannical gardens


Yummy birthday Cakes!
     Party with the family!
Ethan's preschool birthday!
Kaden's preschool birthday!
Ethan's preschool birthday, his teacher made the boys the hats--super cute!

The boys turned 4, they had a great birthday week full of cake, more sugar, and toys!  Kaden got a nerf gun and Ethan got another sword and they both got toy motorcycles they love.  

The HUGE belly

So I have actually really enjoyed being pregnant despite the continual nausea in the morning, I have just really been grateful to make it so far.  I am about 35weeks now.  Justin has had an amazing schedule, home on weekends, going to church as a family, can't ask for more than that.  Right now Justin is applying for jobs in Internal Medicine the position is called a hospitalist.  He has four job offers and so now we just have to figure out which one.  3 are in the denver area and one is up in Loveland, colorado.    So that means next year July we are officially done with the medical program stuff!    Ethan is in preschool four days a week 1/2 day, he is really enjoying it and learning a lot.  Kaden is in twice a week for just a couple hours but he absolutely loves it and is also having a blast learning.   So that is it, just excited to see our baby-to-be and hope that everyone is doing really well Happy Fall!